1. Beautiful friendships.
2. A beautiful country to live in that’s a new an interesting experience.
3. Ett andraspråk att uttrycka mig på när engelska inte funkar.
4. En nystart till livet
6. A reasonable mind.
7. An amazing city full of interesting smart people from all over the world. Hooray college towns!
8. New friends around every corner if I take the chance to talk with them.
9. Rediscovering my authenticity.
10. Finding beauty and reason to not give up hope in a poem of all things.
A fig for him who frets!
It’s not raining rain to me
It’s raining violets.
A demonstration in Malmö got nasty a few weekends ago. Some nasty nazi like supporters knifed a bunch of immigrants, one who is called Showan, who is literally fighting for his life in Lunds hospital at the moment. Love everyone, love their differences. We cannot all be the same in this world. Fear is the enemy.
“Even the smallest person can change the course of the future.”
Instead of running to someone who can never give me what I want anyway, I called my friend!
Girl power! Snap!
This is so weird! I love it!
"Here’s to a long life and a merry one. A quick death and an easy one. A handsome boy and an honest one. A cold pint and another one!"
Part of getting everything on the to-do list accomplished on this Monday is that I feel like I really deserve to go out to a St. Patty’s Dinner with my fellow English-speakers :)
This is it! The week of working hard and seeing what happens! I paid my hyra (rent) to the new place and have that interview Tuesday. Gonna call the other place tomorrow to see if I can come by for a bit. Gotta have a little more swagger than the Kelly typically has but not so much that it’s OVERTLY cocky Americana. I got this. We can help each other!
This weekend was interesting. It was full of little discoveries. I found out I can still have fun with new friends. The English speaking comedians taught me that I’m not all alone here, that there are folks who feel just as weirded out by everything and really they can be just as, if not more so, bitter than I could ever dream of being. I mean one dude married a Swedish lady, has a kid with her, ended up getting divorced, and now can basically never leave because well, yeah. It doesn’t work like that. Children are everything.
Then on Saturday mats and I had a nice goodbye dinner with his parents, as strange as that sounds. It was the most relaxed, best time I’ve ever had. Weird. Afterwards we had what would’ve been worlds biggest argument afterwards. It ended up being a thing where I walked to the next bus stop and let him cool off a bit, and let me think a bit too. It hurt of course, but it was also like, well, we don’t have to be so angry with each other anymore, especially if we still want to be friends. It wasn’t the huge scene and catastrophe of a night that it would have been in the past. It’s okay. Life still goes on.
The next day I borrowed a film from Kim, payed my rent, signed up for the huge lkf queue, signed up for Willys+ and basically looked over the finances one last time. It’ll be okay.
It feels strange still. Mats and I still hug, pretend dance with each other. In some ways I feel closer to him than I’ve felt in ages. We both know we are losing each other soon so we are being nice. Those cracks are still there, but it feels more like I know that I still have things I need to work on personally. I know what shortcomings I have in a relationship, but can also see it takes two people to make things work. I also know what personalities rub me the wrong way, and they will probably always do that. I know that life isn’t solved by leaving this relationship. It’s more like I can’t wait to explore myself further. I get to know myself more!
A weird realizAtion I had today was that I was single for the last World Cup, and I’ll be single for this one too. Heja Holland! It reminds me of the best summer of my life, right before I met Mats, which was probably one of the best autumns of my life so far. I have that attitude again. That life is an adventure, that there are so many interesting people in the world to meet, and I’m doing things that I love. I’m helping people create their dream by designing their company’s new logo. It’s so exciting. It’s so much fun. It’s terrifying. It’s great!
Because I DO know what is best for me.
I can sense when something is wrong even if it takes my brain a little while to figure out exactly why that is so.
I know when to just leave things alone.
I know that sometimes it’s impossible to do so because I’m human.
I trust me!
I’m my own best friend, and the friends I’ve made are pretty wonderful people too. They support me, love me, and are really positive and genuine. I love that. Sofia Maria Karin Kim Lindsey. You guys rock.
Literature Meme: (3/7) Characters
↳ Atticus Finch
“I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. It’s when you know you’re licked before you begin, but you begin anyway and see it through no matter what.” - Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird